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GREETINGS ;

Ok , I am back . I am not so good at this ............. I spent the last one week practically thinking my mind off . Do not mind me , I am always over analyzing stuff .  First , I am happy that you all take your time to read through my writing .  The world around me has been far too kind  to inspire me get the words to fill this pages .

I guess I will rant a bit more , hmmmmmmmmmmm where to start ?

 I am still trying to figure a lot of things about this blog . Blogs and life , one and the same . I am pretty excited and nervous at the same time . My life has been no short of a novel , every year has been a chapter created , written and produced . Life has every thing to offer . I have fought with my demons for which I became victor and am ready to fight more if I have to . Angels have been born , wounds healed , scars faded but the memories remain . Only when you are older are you able to  look back at the past and see things for the way they really were .

Its been an interesting six months , I have made a life of my own , I have made steps and relationships that I am proud of doing . I am afraid I am growing up too fast , not a day goes by that I do not think about my lifetime as a kid . An era is coming to an end , learnt a lot , grew a lot it only keeps adding to the experience . Life is a never ending journey I enjoy being part of it . I am making sure to learn every bit .

This should have been my first post , write a 5000 characters bio insert lots of smileys . But I believe writing is talking  , discussing events and conveying emotions . A lot of self actualization is in store this year and the years ahead now that I have a public diary . I have no guide , I offer no advice ,no therapy .
Brightening things up I miss that girl I used to be , growing up makes you an introvert (probably just me ) you keep swallowing , swallowing , absorb like a sponge every emotion . If I start opening up and pouring out everyone will think its nothing short of  mid-life crisis . Don't get me wrong I am not in any way dramatic , I do a pretty good job at keeping my demons at bay . My attitude towards life is ; Bring that shit on !!! I'm excited for the future and what it holds , and I'm excited for the adventures I plan on taking this year , mental , emotional and physical . I hope my words come with me 


Bless 

Ivanress

Good Vibes

It has been quite a while since we last met , this blank paper and my thoughts. As I begin , it is a culture that every situation has a quote ( yeah yeah if everyone did not settle for just anything , this would not be the case) I plan on making people think , making people understand , making  people happy , to make you feel something . The world needs more people willing to feel something !!!

I am still at an age where any words of advice I offer are mostly words not much for the wise . One person I am wiser than though is the person I was two, five or ten years ago and definitely the person I was yesterday. I do not know much but I know much than I did then . This far , I believe that falling in love is one of life's greatest adventure , I believe everyone is good at heart . I am not lost , I am hopeful , I believe you are only lost when you lose the simple hope of being found , somewhere :) . The greatest thing to happen to you is to have your heart broken . This is great for three reasons , it means you have loved , you have lost , and you continued living . A learning experience at its best .This is the advice you were given but did not take , walk away when the only one giving love is you . Love will find even the smallest silver of good in people , after all it is all about seeing the perfect in the imperfect . Don't be too hard on yourself this is your first time  in this life , the best thing about it , is being able to get out of bed when you thought you could not . It means you are alive , freed , staring into the eyes of pain . Carry on , remember if there is one mistake you will make is fore going your true self . You can feel alive , you can feel love and it is in those seconds you know what you are surviving for , You .