In a thousand moons

I'm starting to realize that sometimes you have to alter your dreams, change your needs and wants to make new ones. Letting go does not mean giving up, instead it changes how we hope, wish or expect things to be.

This post is dedicated to people who like me, have held something so close, wished upon every star but nothing feels any better. Being caught up in a place where you wish you were miles away, stuck in between the yesterdays, tomorrows and the uncertainty of the present. Take a deep breath, live another day. Sometimes we have to accept that there will always be people that stay in our hearts even if not in our lives.

People are afraid of a list of things;

1. Themselves.
2. Reality
3.  and definitely Feelings.

 Human beings are designated by default, relationships are flawed from the start. It always calm before the storm. Everything in the world is make believe. However the beauty of our imperfections are so rare only a few can fathom. An Emotion is a gift, a feeling, a way of life. Few have the courage and confidence to interpret or understand how they themselves feel, but so long as it has a profound affect on a person it cannot be erased, it can only be passed on.

Its a never ending battle with reality and feelings, at times you need to stop fighting, let whatever happens, happen. Take a stride, move forward.

 Fear I'd say is the work of our imaginations.We need to learn to let the soul learn to find the path itself. Maybe, just maybe we are too busy counting the stars we miss the moon. The number of moons might have been hundreds, thousands perhaps. The twisted part of it all is that sometimes you have to be with the person who makes you smile even if it means waiting.


                                             
Signing out ............ Ivanress.

OVER, OVER THINKING YOU

I sit at my desk, and my mind wanders. Some days you feel lost and you can hear yourself dreaming. This is definitely one of those days. Blame it on coffee hangovers or whatever I dont know just make it sound human.

My days are mostly alike, I never sleep enough, never eat enough, my body refuses to wake me up on time I have been fighting battle with the universe literally with this unsympathetic schedule. I'm not complaining merely tired. Everyone gets tired. This is no defense for whom I have become, who I am, or who I will become.
If I weren't this girl I would be well, this girl. Yes, we have known each other for a very long time. Like a true friend you have stuck by through all. Sometimes its hard but we fight our battles no matter how tough. 

Forgive me for my short paragraphs, its just how my mind is working at the moment. (read exhausted) 
I'm out of sight, out of mind, and feels like out of love. There are no stars in the city, no dreams in my sleep, no butterflies in the air. The kind of feeling that makes you just wanna have the shower run 10 minutes plus, then head straight  under your sheets. But your not sleeping, just trying to, running away from all these things unseen but are haunting you. 

 The answer

  "A happy person is not a person in a certain set of circumstances, but rather a person with a certain set of attitudes." -Hugh Downs


 


                     JESSIE J - WHO YOU ARE


               


Dear self ;

    I will make sure to keep my distance, say I love you when your not listening .....

Love Ivanress