Once upon a song

I have always said to myself  that am well too bred to get furious . But when I began this piece I was so mad I wanted to crash my phone. I have somehow always thought that it would make me feel much better , smh !! Growing up I learnt this saying ' Loud music covers away the darkness ' so I put on my headphones and was ready to be taken away .

 A couple of songs and my thoughts are running in frenzy ..... longing , nostalgia , bliss. I have mixed feelings about all the feelings I'm feeling . My fingers stopped typing these last 10 minutes , there is an internal battle with my mind . Initially when I began writing I meant for this to be a collection of short stories because sometimes I read a book and I think I'm the people in the book . I know its absurd but I believe people are the happiest making art or making love , spending as much time as you would like in the imaginary world of our day dreams . I always find myself thinking there is got to be more than the world I am living .

Yesterday my mother put the most beautiful yet simple words in a text for me . I could not fight back the tears. As a female I am allowed to have some of this emotional changes and tides . Some of my moods maybe cured by chocolate , wine , good music . I find myself trying to escape who I am at times but I have known happiness but also recognize wallow . Truth is we all got bruises caused by our life crisis. My favorite song Collide - Howie Day has one of the most honest statement , ' Even the best fall down sometimes' .

Music can open eyes , change hearts , change the world . Life comes with no guarantees , no time outs , no second chances . For the lessons taught by the trials are the times in our lives that pose as the greatest tests of our character . Take risks . Fail , fail hard . Even the moon has a dark side . At the end of the day there is a song that will lift your spirit , relate to you . You never walk alone . 

Although now most of my days are spent alone , I am not without my best friend , I am the girl with the headphones on , smiling to herself , looking into the world .

May the bad be in your past ..... Listen to more music , watch more sunsets.