I still can't find the words to describe how it feels to loose you so sudden. I can't get over the fact that I didn't say goodbye, I wish I could have even one more moment with you. Sometimes I wonder if you know how much you meant to me, the love I didn't get enough of. A brother joined in blood and in heart. I don't understand why you had to go.
Aside from this pain that is burning in my heart, I find that reflecting on our moments together brings me closer to you. Even though this memories can no longer be caught, I am grateful I had love, a brother, a best friend.
Thinking about it now, I don't want to comprehend. Well , my eyes are full of tears I got to believe your in a better place. I'm just trying to stay tough, I am afraid I will not be able to make it but I don't even want to.
What I have learnt is acceptance and forgiveness.There will never be a replacement, your memory engraved in my heart. Only time will tell if this grief heals. You taught me to love myself and others. I wish I could write a story about you, but I want that for you and me you only.
And as I look back now, something is true of this life, we don't always get Our happy ending. And it is now just starting to sink in.
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